How to get over public humiliation, even if it was a long time ago?
i realize that it was often my fault and i brought it on myself by shouting at people, getting full on aggressive and attacking bus shelters etc....but i had serious problems with a personality disorder and had anger i just couldn't control, and used to lose control of my impulses......now, thankfully i'm much better, older, wiser, in control more...and no longer have outbursts, even though i still struggle with anger......i have been through a lot in life and are waiting for therapy.
i'm now a man in my early forties, and when i think back to those times, when i was physically attacked and overpowered often, it makes me feel angry, even though i caused it, it feels like injustices were done to me and i brought shame and disgrace to myself?
is there a way, after all this time that i can come to terms with causing myself so much embarrassment in front of crowds of people?
sensible answers please.