I hate talking to my mom should I feel guilty about it?
Upfront this seems very harsh but the reason for that is I have quite a bit of resentment against her, I’ve only realized that recently.
Ever since I was 12 she forced me to wear hijab even tho I made it clear I didn’t want to and she would catch me without it behind her back and cry acting like I’m the one who has hurt her. If she ever finds me talking to a guy she breaks down and tells me guys only want me for sex, and that Islamic arranged marriage is the only way to go for true love (no dating permitted ever even tho I’m 18). She is homophobic, and she has to bring god into every single conversation. Since I’m born into it I’m expected to be Muslim by default, always listen to a male guardian (father and then when I’m married it becomes my husband) never move out until I’m married....
I’m not Muslim, I have to hide everything from her and the fact that I think I’m Bi... I can’t even be myself with her at all. I hate the fact that she forced me to wear hijab it scars me and my social life and her conversation topics which all somehow revolve around religion are of no interest to me. She is a nice person tho, like she tried her best to tell me I’m beautiful, by my nice stuff.... it’s just that she is way too into religion and I’m staring to seriously resent her should I feel guilty?