Young man, your problem is not getting knowledge about a religion, but learning what it is that is the huge barrier between you and God. That barrier is your sin, because God is holy and cannot look upon sin (Habakkuk 1:13). If nobody has yet taught you about why sin prevents you drawing close to God, you are just paddling around the periphery. Only when a person discovers the burden of their sin and cries out to God to deliver them from it will God and Christ become real to you.
That is because heart-felt anguish about our sin is something God causes (if a person is sincere about Him, and not merely religion). The Holy Spirit was sent into our world after Jesus returned to Heaven, to convict sinners of their sin, that they might flee to Christ for deliverance. Read John 14 verse 15 to the end of the chapter.
Once the Holy Spirit causes you to feel the burden of your sin, then (and only then) will you cry out to God in anguish at how hideous your sin is, knowing that that is what alienates you from your Maker. And at the very point where you determine to confess your sin and trust only in what God has done to save you, will that burden of sin be lifted up from you. God will lift it up and away, once and for all, when you trust in what He did - in Christ - to deal with the horror of your sin. Consider the Psalmist's cry:
"Blessed is he whose transgression is uplifted, whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile. When I kept silent, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me: my moisture was turned into the drought of summer. Selah. I acknowledged my sin to you and my iniquity I did not hide. I said, 'I will confess my transgressions to the Lord' and you lifted up the burden of my sin. Selah."
Pray to God to teach you by the Holy Spirit what that means, asking in the name of Jesus, that it might be your experience. If you dare. Until you do, you will only ever be playing at religion.