Why can’t i get myself to practice my instrument anymore ?

I just got accepted to a prestigious college to major in music. somehow, i can’t make myself practice now. it’s some sort of fear that when i make mistakes during practice, it’ll hurt my self esteem even more. i’ve got severe performance anxiety, playing bassoon ( incredibly hard instrument ) doesn’t help. I need... show more I just got accepted to a prestigious college to major in music. somehow, i can’t make myself practice now. it’s some sort of fear that when i make mistakes during practice, it’ll hurt my self esteem even more. i’ve got severe performance anxiety, playing bassoon ( incredibly hard instrument ) doesn’t help. I need to get back to practicing asap, or I’m going to start off terrible and scared, behind my peers in music. How do i get myself to practice again? i love music so much- it is my life.
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