Listen carefully, the attitude you are presenting is an evil attack, the demonic one will use every available resource to cause you to deny the true God.
Evil does not sleep, if it cannot cause grief at the front door it will go the back, if the back is ready it will find another angle; relentless.
Any possible way to make you deny or separate from God is Satan's main goal, recall Hebrews 13:2 - don't ever think a flip side is not possible; demons are also entertained.
Truthfully, you need to get more involved with the people at your Church, the latter people have the same polite mentality as you; calm, peaceful people that observe the Almighty.
Remember, this world is full of ignorant, immoral barbarians that are mentally hanging on by a thread.
The above individuals have no belief in anything, they use Sunday to wash their car or cut the lawn.
Without God in our life we will always display a hopeless life of decay and ruin; erratic and unstable.
God changes a man and a woman, the Almighty instills grace and love of which is only provided if we ask.
The above is not performed on a single short prayer, we must pray and ask each night, it is the perpetual method that God loves to hear.
Additionally, the method of perpetual prayer is mankind making a firm, formal commitment to God.
When we maintain our prayers on a day to day basis we gain enlightenment, the holy angels and saints view us carefully - when evil attacks our good friends are ready to push back the forts of darkness!