Hello, friend. Please remember that your life is very precious no matter what you are facing. And, suicide is never the solution. It might be helpful to reach out to your loved ones or speak to a caring counselor. I know that Focus on the Family can provide a free phone consultation with a licensed counselor if you call this number 855-382-5433.
Also, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline operates toll-free, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Just call 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Their TTY number is 1-800-799-4TTY. Their Lifeline Crisis Chat service is available as well, Monday – Friday from 2:00 P.M. to 2:00 A.M. Eastern Standard Time. You may access the chat service by logging onto www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
Sending prayers your way!