I was born with an undescended testicle, a testicle that remained in my abdomen instead of descending down into my scrotum. Doctors waited to see if it would descend. It didn't. When I was four, I had to have surgery where the doctor cut into my abdomen and removed the undescended testicle. At the same time, the doctor installed a testicular implant into my scrotum, a testicle-shaped, saline-filled sack--basically the same thing as a breast implant but smaller--that made it appear to anyone who looked or even felt that I had two testicles.
When I was 14 or 15, the same doctor, who was a world-renowned specialist at a children's hospital, performed surgery on me again to remove the testicular implant and replace it with one comparable in size to my other testicle, which had grown since I was four and was now adult-size.
I've lived my whole life this way. It's never bothered me a bit. No one has ever made fun of me, mostly because most people don't know, but even the ones who have known, do know, have never said anything negative about it.
I'm quite sexually active. I'm 32 and have had ballpark 250 different sexual partners. Not once has anyone even noticed it. The only people who know about it are people I've told, which I usually tell those I'm more seriously dating. Also, my best friend knows and so do several of my closest guy friends. It's not like I formally announced it but instead it just came up in casual conversation like this one, where the idea of losing a testicle or whatever became the topic of conversation.
So, my answer is yes, I'd be okay. That's because I am okay. It has had zero impact on my life. I mean, have I wondered what it would be like to have two that I could feel? Sure. I love the feeling of having my balls fondled and sucked during sex, but I can only feel it in the one, the real one. So, yeah, I'd like to be able to feel it completely, to feel it on the left side, not just the right, and while I've built it up at times in my head as being something awesome I'm missing out on, something tells me that it wouldn't actually be dramatically different but would just feel like what's going on on the right side on the left.
The only time it gets a little awkward is when I'm being gone down on and then while I'm getting my balls sucked, as happens, suddenly it's my left ball that's getting sucked by itself. It's awkward because I'm not sure what to do. Those who do that have no idea because I haven't told them and I feel it's not their business to know--we're close enough for intimate banging but not close enough for intimate details. So I flounder between pretending I can feel it and am enjoying it and trying to redirect those people to something I can feel and enjoy.
· 4 months ago