I am very upset that I will never be with this woman?
When we were 10 years old, I started developing romantic feelings for her, and I was hoping one day that we would get married to each other. When we were kids, adults used to tease us that we would get married someday, and so I was certain that we would get married someday. Another reason why I was so certain about that too is because I watched a lot of movies like The Lion King and Happy Feet and the Harry Potter series where 2 childhood friends become more than friends later on in their life, and so I thought that was going to happen with me and my friend.
However I was too nervous and shy to let her know my feelings about her, and when we got into high school, she started dating other boys, and I got really upset and jealous about that.
When we both become 18 years old, I finally let her know about my feelings about her, and she said that she never felt that way about me. I was and am still devastated about that, since it was my long life dream to be with her, and that will never happen. To matters worse, I never kissed a girl, since I was saving my first kiss for her. She has a boyfriend now, and she's happy with him. But I'm not happy at all.