I don't care if my parents die. How to care?
My parents separated lives when I was about 3-7 years old, pretended and acted out as if everything was fine. It gave me depression, and I was cutting myself out of boredom. But none of these matters.
Right now, I'm simply using them to buy me a book and a drawing tablet online. I don't care if they care about me, I just want them to buy these things for me.
This. All of this not caring, I want it all to stop. I want to value something other than my computer for once, but I just find everything stupid and useless.