Well, you are not alone in feeling alone. I feel quite alone. I am the kind of person where, when given a task, the people assigning me the task completely abandon me to do the task all by myself, then get mad at me when I do not do the task the way they think I should have done it and criticize my hard work they demanded I do. And lately people have been stabbing me in the back, and it hurts. YOU are NOT alone in your feeling alone! There are some things you can do for balance. It IS summer vacation coming up! Plan to go outside more often and get fresh air as well as getting away from people to refresh. I have to work out to at least have a healthy body to combat the emotional battering. I walk my dogs every night to go outside to refresh and reconnect with the earth and sky and to release the feeling of being pent-up and trapped. I love to swim and summer heat is coming, so we got a pass to the nearby lake so I can cool off when it gets to be 100-degree says. I eat healthy and take my vitamins to keep it going. As for the people who hurt me, I choose (and sometimes it is hard) to forgive them where they have no forgiveness for me. Sometimes I have to meditate to work it through. Right now I have some people who are selfishly denying other people their grief over the death of a couple common close friends, to the point where they are shutting my daughter and me out of even speaking the names of the deceased and deciding who can grieve and who can't among their own friends! So we have to forgive these people as is right, and that can be hard as well as feeling alone being shut out of sharing our grief over our deceased friends where they can but we can't. No, you are not alone in being abused by other people, I was, too. It was hard to live with day-to-day stress of fighting and criticism and cursing and abuse. When I was old enough to walk to the mall by myself, I did. I learned how to ride the bus, too, so I could take myself out of target range among the people at home. I was lucky to live near the ocean, so it was a bicycle ride to the beach in the summer. There's also learning how to do things for YOU. I learned to cook so I could at least eat good food, I learned to sew quilts so I can make beautiful blankets fir my beds. I learned to sail a boat, go fishing, and camp so when daily work life gets rough, I know how to go to the mountains for a few days. I learned how to go places by myself, so when people at home got on my case, I could go take myself to the mall or the beach or the park and be okay being by myself. As for money, my daughter and I are on a very limited budget. And clothes can be expensive. But we are not ashamed to wear used clothes, so we volunteer at the church rummage sale, take home all the clothes and clean them, sort out what fits and what does not fit, take what does not fit to the consignment store and let them pick through it. What they don't take, we set up a yard sale and sell ourselves. We also now refurbish furniture left over from the church rummage sale and sell it ourselves for cash for our travels to the lake and the beach this summer. In other words, my life changed when I took more control over my life. Instead of waiting for people to be nice to me, I tried to be nice to them. When people did not forgive me, I tried to forgive them. When people wanted to stay home and do nothing, I went outside and went for a walk. When people didn't want to go anywhere, I made it a point to go everywhere. Where people spent a lot of money on things, I sought to spend a little money so I had more money to travel to get miles away from them. Where they were sick all the time, I learned how to get healthy. Where they never read books, I read lots of books. Where they never studied or leaned, I worked on education and learning to know for myself everything I could, including foreign languages, so if I have to do it myself, I can. Now I don't let "them" hold me back anymore. When it is time to go, I go, and I enjoy myself because I also got a sense of humor and learned how to laugh at the silly and the crazy and the weird instead of sit and stew in misery. Do the same and your own life will change. Good luck. But go and DO and work to learn to change.