I'm sorry you're in that position.
Not being God, I couldn't say where you're going. It depends on how you've lived.
For when people of the nations, who do not have the Law, do by nature the things of the Law, these people, although not having the Law, are a law unto themselves. They are the very ones who demonstrate the matter of the Law to be written in their hearts, while their conscience is bearing witness with them, and by their own thoughts they are being accused or even excused. Romans 2:14 -15
Whether or not they're Christian, those who lead loving and virtuous lives are pleasing in the eyes of the Lord. We're judged according to our understanding.
Eastern Orthodox Christian