Four words, are you for real? Apart from the fact that you're suffering from a lack of self-esteem and possibly need to be in therapy, which by the way, would indirectly tell you to dump this manipulating a**hole asap, and never for one moment ever think about taking him back, unless you want to be in therapy forever. Why, because the love you have for him is not reciprocated, or even close to how you feel for him. You're like millions of women on the planet that believes all the BS that comes out of their psychotic bf/partner/husbands mouth. Clearly likes those millions there's nothing wrong with you other than you're still with this a**wipe of a d**khead, and contemplating getting engaged! More fool you!