Hey, I don't know who you are, but I want you to know that people care about you and you are loved. A lot of people go through hard times and I'm sorry you are. If you feel depressed, you should seek help. Talk to someone. Anyone. It doesn't have to be someone professional if you're not comfortable about that. Being stuck in the house isn't good for anyone. Go out, even just to the shop. Go on a walk, a run, anything. Life is beautiful and you deserve to be in it.
Please, if you can, find something positive to think about. Don't see life as a curse, but a blessing. You have so much more of your life to live. Take up something new, even something simple like football, or writing. You can start by writing your feelings down if you don't want to talk to someone yet. The important thing is not to bottle up your feelings. Let them out somehow.
I really hope you find some benefit from this message and help yourself turn your life around. I believe in you. Good luck.