Should I come off medication, severe depression?

I had really severe depression 4 weeks ago before I started my medication, it's an antidepressant - Sertraline 50mg - I feel as though my intelligence and ability to think creatively is somehow hindered, I find it hard focusing on things also. My depression was the result of guilt, low self esteem, having no... show more I had really severe depression 4 weeks ago before I started my medication, it's an antidepressant - Sertraline 50mg - I feel as though my intelligence and ability to think creatively is somehow hindered, I find it hard focusing on things also. My depression was the result of guilt, low self esteem, having no friends etc, very much relying on online friends, and an inappropriate death threat i made to a guy online when drunk (who had bullied me). I recently deleted all my online friends, as I made mistakes, telling them bad things when drunk, and I regretted it. I'm gay also, these friends online are gay too, I just feel generally lonely, and have no foundation of friends to rely on, or even help me. I don't really care for my appearance anymore, I'm quite a handsome guy, and I just let myself go, don't have any motivation really to do anything. Should I come off my medication? I drank on them 2 nights ago, around 8 drinks, and I feel a bit depressed at the moment, but is it better to go off them? sacrifice depression for clouded thinking? Would I be able to pick myself up gradually with therapeutic thinking? my mum, aunt has bipolar, so I thought it might be in me too, I've had about 4 bad depressive spells in my life, I'm 19 now.
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