Am I too ugly to have a gf/bf?
Im 16 and Everyday, i look at myself in the mirror and i never like what i see. I have no friends due to my mental illness (SAD, Chronic depression) And everyday I feel SO lonely, and i yearn to have someone to love, but then I laugh at myself for my thoughts, because I honestly feel i'm ugly. whenever I see stories of how in love two people are, instead of it making me smile like it use to (me being a hopeless romantic) I just cry, and cry now, because I believe this will never happen to me. I've just finished crying and im tired of doing it so this time im asking on here to see..are my thoughts really true? I just need someone and right now i basically have NO standards for whom i would date as long as they wanted me...I feel my self esteem lower (idk how its even possible) every single day and...idk what to do really. I feel so broken and pained inside, and I've always felt sort of like this.
When i was younger in 1st-8th grade, I was picked on and called hideous by all the kids in my class. Being that i had braids then thye called me a whoppi goldberg look alike, and one said i was gonna grow up to be like our teacher... (a not so attractive lady) and never have anyone.. Those words have never affected me more now...idk what to do.