Anyone willing to give a reason to hope/live? Losing the fight.?
Also, (side note) no matter how much I love to run, etc. emotions attached to it have made it painful at times as well.
I can tell you that I am extremely talented and naturally gifted at what ever I do, but that just doesn't seem to do it for me anymore: with all of that comes more pressure and a ton of potential; sometimes, I wish I didn't have "all the potential" and "abilities people would kill for"- I can pretty much remember anything and everything, which causes me to analyze to death -though math and sciences came easy-, musically gifted, extremely athletic, and a talent for writing.
You can say, "You have all to live for."
But I have been feeling very unfulfilled. I force myself to go out when there is nice weather just because I don't want to waste it and feel like if I don't, I am. And it. Bothers. Me.
People find me easy to talk to and I can get along with just about anyone who is willing to talk, though, that doesn't mean they (emphasis on they) will stay my friend for some reason (and I am an extremely generous person, but cursed with friends who are only friends when there's an interesting story or want something from you). And I love to inspire people if I get the chance, though the chances seem to come few and far in between.
My ability to pretty much remember everything, I think, will be the downfall of me, unfortunately. It's hard because you remember that people say they will do something only to have them not and it then raises the question on whether or not they remember or just don't want to and I am that forgettable(even for the most random of things that I have no use remembering).
For a low point, you know those weird questions, "Would you rather die from a volcano or be frozen?" that kids would ask you when you were young- I've given some thought to it, I choose poison by sleeping pills (maybe that was a bad thing to write down).
If you read this, thank you for your time, it is appreciated and maybe you'll be a revenant (interesting, Yahoo doesn't know this word). On the flip side, I hope this wasn't banal and I apologize for wasting your time.
But, I am struggling and can't deal with it anymore and if anyone has any advice, please, I implore you to write it down. And please don't say that I am having a mid-life crisis, with lack of fulfillment. I'm unhappy and every time I try to make things happen instead of waiting for things to happen, everything just ends up worse, even when I hope for the best. I feel like I am in a dream and I just want to wake up.
(This doesn't have to deal with the question per se but, does anyone else not understand why it's such a tiny box to type this in? (I observe the most random things usually.))
Thank you for those who have answered so far, you have given me a lot to think about. I don't know how I came across, but, what if I told you I was 18? Would that change any of your responses? I purposefully tried to write it more ambiguously to not give that away because I didn't want age to impact your answer.
The rest of this is more along the lines of answers:
To some of Daniel's questions.
First, I didn't mean to "vaunt" about all my abilities. They were inserted into this to help give you an idea of who I am; if you met me in person, I would never actually say those things to people. Those things are what I have been told because of actions those people have witnessed (like you, but I don't have the ability to do so in this situatio
But I will tell you this, a little over a year ago I
I would have liked to have been able to respond to your answer directly, but atlas, Yahoo does not allow that.