Muslim parents screwed me up and now I feel like a cripple?
I actually spoke to Ami for about twenty minutes on the phone recently and she suggested we should catch up. It has been about two months since then and I simply cannot bring myself to call her. It feels like I've waited too long since that one phone call. I wouldn't know what to say. I don't know what it is that's expected of me. I feel like such a loser every time I see her name in the contacts on my phone. She probably thinks that I don't care about her. How could she think anything else? She probably thinks I'm some normal dude that goes around getting laid all the time.
People tell me that I'm good-looking (a cute cashier at a store that I frequent has started hitting on me) and everyone says I'm hilarious, including Ami, who laughs at every frickin thing I say. I can honestly say that I am ashamed of my lack of experience with women. It makes me feel like the lowest of the low. I'm always afraid the topic of sex or dating will come up in a conversation, because I am hiding in plain sight and a conversation like that can expose me. Everyone just assumes that I'm a normal guy with a normal sex life, even my relatives.
I just feel like she'll react negatively to my inexperience and that it would be a burden on her. I have this image of her laughing when she finds out. Any advice or comments are welcome and appreciated.
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