get you some help immediately. I have the same thing, I mean it feels like I have already done it though. My heart starts pumping and my adrenaline starts racing so I know exactly what you are going through. But the only difference is that I do care. I have to exercise some extreme self control. The thought of whether it is right or wrong never crosses my mind. I just have to learn to control them. It is hard to control them, and I am never angry or mad when they come alone, they just do. You really want to go and talk to someone as soon as you can though. Like really it is really important that you do so you can get some help. Obviously you want some help or else you would not be on here. If you do end up in a mental hospital, so what? At least they will be able to help you there, more so than the answers that we are giving you here. So let's make a pact. You find you some help first thing tomorrow and I myself will call my psychiatrist emergency help line how about that. We might need some help,we might need some medicine or whatever it is. Do not give into them. You are too good of a person. Want to know how I know, because you are reaching out instead of acting out. So tonight, or if not tonight first thing in the morning I will call my people, and you find you a doctor that you can go to how abut that.
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