i looked at your other Q i am just going to post here.
first things first huni. you are very young and you need help. talk to your parents tell them exactly how you feel and tht you need and want help from them and a doctor. they need to be sympathetic and understanding to you, they also as your parents should already be helping you at your age and weight and the fact you are cutting.
talk to a school counselor and nurse. ask them also for help. counseling...diet and nutriton plan. tell them you need and want it...
you are over weight for your age, and you do need to cut back and lose some before it gets out of hand. you need too beter self esteem for yourself. you need to be able to look in the mirror and like what you see. even if you dont fully like what you see but not hate yourself, but know and see whre you need to make changed and improvements. babysteps
drink more water, cut back on soda and junkfood an such. eat salads...try and exercise more. get involved in some school activity after school.
sadly school kids are mean in many ways..but you yourself cannot be one of the mean kids. you know what its like to be put down and dont like it dont do it to others...there are many out there just like you. who need and want friends who need and want help.
stand strong in who you are.
as for the cutting, stop it. it is not a good thing to do. yes i understand that by inflicting a pain the other tends to diminish but its not the answer. not to mention you can seriously hurt yourself with cutting. im glad you decided not to do that tonite.
get yourself a notebook. get yourself two. one for diet log and one for lashing out expressions.
the diet log...start monday. write down everything you ate in a day. breakfast, snacks, lunch, dinner, what you drank...and how much you exercised...also weigh yoruself on monday...put it on page one. ( i know with the holdiday comingup it will be a bit difficult tht day but try an stay in a balanced meal plan).
for exercise..walk in place, upp an down stairs, squats, sit ups..walk around block if its not to cold..etc..start out slow try at least 15 min a day and work your way up.
your lash out expression journal. in this journal write down every time you hate yourself and why...vent, scream cry here. put all your thoughts n paper every time you want to cut, do this to avoid cuttting...draw..whtever..this is a for you only book. it helps to let lose of rampant words...let them go here instad of at someone else or yourself...
and of course with all this being said..again get some help..from parents, school counselor, school nurse and doctor...for mental aspects, and diet/nutriion plan. so tht you can do this the right way and the healtny way.
you are most important and there is only one of you, its up to you to want this for you and only you.do it for you no one else.
good luck ...and rememeber take care of you.