Why does this make me almost cry?

Okay I'm a 17 year old guy, half black half asian. I moved from an extremely small and remote town to a big city 2 years ago and I have no social skills when it comes to meeting new people. It takes a lot of time for me to get comfortable talking to girls. I'm tall, in shape, and all that stuff but I still have... show more Okay I'm a 17 year old guy, half black half asian. I moved from an extremely small and remote town to a big city 2 years ago and I have no social skills when it comes to meeting new people. It takes a lot of time for me to get comfortable talking to girls. I'm tall, in shape, and all that stuff but I still have problems with it... Lately a few girls from my high school graduating class have been talking to me a lot and hanging out, and it makes me think about why I've never had a serious relationship before. Everytime I get close to it, I screw it up. Today, I was talking to a girl that is beautiful, smart, talented, and just amazing. Today though, we were talking for hours on the phone, then I just thought to myself "she's great... but like always, she's just not the one for me" and within seconds I began fighting tears. The last time I cried was when I was 12. I haven't cried since then, not even at funerals of close people. Today was weird though... It just gave me a real sense of hopelessness when it comes to relationships. I have no confidence anymore that I will find the right girl. I know i'm 17 and i'm young, but I just get really lonely and it would be nice to have someone with me... Since I moved, I don't have many friends. Also, my previous town had no black people or asians, so I mainly just had white friends. When I moved here, all the blacks and asians kind of just exiled me because I don't talk with an accent or anything and my family is very well off. Sorry I'm getting off topic.

But yeah, I'm not one who shows emotions like this in public. I tend to hold it in, because even though releasing emotions is a good thing, it isn't a good thing to do in front of people you aren't close to, it's just a sign of weakness. Also, my parents left me with the house to myself for 3 weeks, and it's been one week. I am extremely lonely and depressed and I haven't gotten out of the house once...

Please, please help me. I'm not suicidal right now, although every now and then I consider it. I just need someone to give me a little hope that I will find the right girl for me... Please.
Update: Thanks for the answers so far, they are very good. I just wanted to add that I've been an athiest since I was 12, the same age as last time I cried. So going to a church or asking god for help would not help me. I don't mean to offend anyone who is religious, I am very open to religous people, I just... show more Thanks for the answers so far, they are very good. I just wanted to add that I've been an athiest since I was 12, the same age as last time I cried. So going to a church or asking god for help would not help me. I don't mean to offend anyone who is religious, I am very open to religous people, I just don't follow their ways.
Update 2: I'm trying so hard not to cry now... I'm never going to find the right girl...
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