I gave my daughter away for adoption and I am feeling devastated now...?

I am a single parent with two kids. I have just given birth to a healthy and beautiful daughter and as promised, I had "given her away" for adoption to my best friend who has been married for more than 5 years and had no children. I have sleepless night since I gave her away. I thought I am strong... show more I am a single parent with two kids. I have just given birth to a healthy and beautiful daughter and as promised, I had "given her away" for adoption to my best friend who has been married for more than 5 years and had no children. I have sleepless night since I gave her away. I thought I am strong enough to face this, but I'm wrong. I am torn between the love of my daughther and the promises I've made to my friend. I am a working mum and I am confident that I can look after my daughter, but it's the promises that makes me feel so guilty. My friend and his wife are so "into" my daughter and they had been buying todler's stuff, etc for her. Even their family are so "into" my daughter - I can see the love, care and concern from them towards my daughter. I hate myself for trying to be "cool" when I saw them kissing, hugging and giving her love......Now I am really feeling so devastated. I don't want my daughter to hate me when she learnt about the adoption. Please help...
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