I hate being disabled, it's sucks. I deal with issues that most normal people couldn't begin to comprehend and usually don't even want to try to understand. I say usually because I've learned to hide my disability most of the time when possible and there are very few people who do find out about the disabilites who refuse to treat me as a second hand human being, which is always a nice treat.
I am a 32 year old straight man and I have mild right spastic hemiplegia/paralysis (cerebral palsy), mild epilepsy, mild (I think mild) scoliosis, and adhd. I am also not able to have children, I can have sex but the risks of having a spasm (or rather dealing with the pains of spasms) or blowing out my knees or hips will prevent me from enjoying it and therefore prevents from me chancing it. It really stinks being a 32 yr old virgin for medical reasons, I love women, love the way they look, walk, talk, etc. and a few have even liked me, but when the chance came along I'd have to stop dead in my tracks out of fear of hurting either myself or hurting her. I blew out my left knee at 23 and have been overweight since about 12 years old. My testosterone levels are low enough to where I only shave about once a month or so instead of daily like most men my age, which is cool because I avoid the pains of shaving but sucks because I'd love to grow a beard and moustache. My hands don't always work the way they should and because my balance is thrown off by my cp, I tend to be more clumsy than most people bumping into things or dropping objects. I am also not as strong as most guys my age and this usually causes me to ask others for help to do certain things when I should be able to do it myself.
I have an IQ of over 130, so I'm smart and to look at me you'd think I was normal (for the most part). Unfortunately I know I am very different from normal people and in many ways am abnormal in the way I think, act, feel, walk, talk, etc. Many people have pointed this out to me over the years of how different I am (including family) even if they do or don't know the truth about my little issues and usually not in a good way.
Consequently, I am a loner. I avoid dealing with people when possible and although I do sometimes enjoy hanging out with people, I enjoy solitude more. I feel I'd be a totally different person if I wasn't born with these issues. Like that song ".45" by shinedown says, I feel as though I'm walking through the ashes of another life.