Okay. Everything I said got deleted, so I'll try to interpret by memory. If I could, I would reccomend songs that a male8thgrader14yearsold told me to add on my list of over a hundred songs. I wouldn't know how tha twould actually help you though. You're honest, and at least you're sensible enough to say you fear rejection, and school's outcasts I would respect. You probably DO have a friend, but again you said you didn't. People talking to you, but only for a second. That's probably an understatement, but maybe a chance of that being true as well. Your parents care about you, and the worse thing they fear is you being in the doom of gloom. Their own son, that's just depressing and sad to their own part, feeling that they've failed. What you really need though is support, and to get out of the "phase" But I say though it's not "just a phase you'll be okay you're fine" type thing. Maybe it is, or you feel like you need to tell your feelings to a therapist. If you're scared to confront your parents because of the insanity, then talk to you school counselor. And you're on the internet asking this question. Maybe you should consider checking on yahoo search for articles about depression and such. School cliques are ghetto these days, where they don't give a care for others who are left out, and I hope i'm not one of those people who reject. In my opinion, I think school outcasts are probably the nicest, honest, unique and have great hospitality compared to my beserk personality. I don't know what else there is in life that's making you sad or down the drain other than being alone or mental. You're mental, but so are other people who probably have it worse. And agian.. don't be suicidal. It's the pernament quit of life that can not be undone unless miracles did exist. There's better things in life to look forward to, and letting sadness or dying related items taking over you is weakness. Everyone is strong, and you should be too! You're a guy, and not to be genderist, but you must be mature and serious to be suicidal in the first place. Some girls have crappy reasons, and I was probably one of them at the time. .. gah. I need to stop mentioning myself. You're looking for help, and that means you're not THAT suicidal. You're not that secrative in the dark shades of suicide. And going back to how you draw death related items, it shows that your'e artistic of how you feel. That's how you express yourself if it wasn't that therapist or therapy for two months. Maybe you're insecure and need someone to talk to more often.. like I said. I would add more, but I don't know what else to say. It's not entirely your fault that you're jwle;rwkejjw;eklj rejected from friends or working during projects.. and yah. Point - if you are to consult your parents, they'll freak out yes ! But they love you. That's the most important thing, and as long as you acknowledge their love for you, you can't still stay sad like that, right? =( Err, I would add more than this but I wasn't originally in the mood to think about suicide, but it's cruel and just plain darkness in general. I hope you do get help whether it's from your parents, a new friend, school conselor, and that you'll have a better future than the current sucky present we're having at the moment. Good luck and latuhz.