Sometimes I wish someone would put me out of my misery?
I don't believe in suicide. That's a wrong thing to do, mostly to family. Sometimes I am walking across a parking lot and wish the car wouldn't stop. I wish it would just run right into me. I don't think people would really miss me all that much. None of my old friends talk to me anymore. Everyone frankly appears to hate me. I feel like I am losing myself to food, and I can't escape it. I have never had a girlfriend. I grew up bullied.
I have never cut myself, or done any harm like that. And I don't plan on ever doing so. But I have made myself throw up before. The only people that seem to really smile at me are infants and young children. I say hi back, but I wonder why the hell they would smile and say hi to such a loser. And I work at worst place on earth. Walmart. And I can not escape it. I have tried to leave 3 or 4 times now, but each time I fail and end up staying. And being there only makes me feel worse.
Does anyone know how to help me get a lil happier?
- az_mommmaLv 61 decade agoFavorite Answer
If you are this down on yourself that may be a huge reason why others seem to have moved away from you. When you feel this badly on the inside it does show on the outside.
You have got to find a way to learn to love who you are. Instead of thinking badly of yourself you have got to start creating and focusing on all the good things about you. There are good things about you, you've just blinded yourself to them to the point that you don't really like you and others don't really want to be around you.
I'm sure if you asked you would find that alot of people care, they just don't know what they can do to help you. Sometimes when we can't help someone we pull away from them... not the best thing to do, but we don't know how to deal with their negative attitude or depression.
Infants and young children are very smart. They can see things in people much deeper than older people can. There is something good in you... the kids see it, that is why they smile at you. You don't understand because you have blinded yourself to the good in you. They see your face and it makes them happy, it doesn't scare them. They don't see a loser, they see someone who makes them feel happy and want to smile. Focus on that and try to see if you can find in you what they are obviously seeing.
Check into some training or classes to start working with younger kids. See what you can do to get into a field like that. Sure, it doesn't seem like something a guy would do, but who cares.... kids seem to like you and you may be able to do alot of good for them... and in turn for yourself.
In the meantime try to get into some counseling. And if you can't do that then make it a point to start making changes in your attitude. Everyday find something good about yourself (it's there) and look in the mirror and tell yourself over and over that good thing. Find a new one everyday.
When you are out and about take the time to do something nice for someone. You may hate walmart, but it should give you the opportunity to go out of your way everyday to do something nice for someone. As you do nice things and hear the appreciation and thank yous you will soon learn you have some value to this world beyond what you thought.
Best of luck to you and I hope something I said was able to help. I know how you feel.. I've been there. It took alot of time and determination, but today I am the person that is always smiling and happy. If I ain't smiling I have 50 people asking me what's wrong. I am just happier than ever.... you can be too!
- JeancommunicatesLv 71 decade ago
I sure do know how to help you get a little happier. Change your stinkin' thinkin'. Listen to what God says you are
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son....
God loves you so much that He gave His Son for you.
God will never leave you nor forsake you. Best friend you will ever have.
Do you know why babies and small children smile at you? They are the best judges of character on this earth. If a child likes you, I automatically know that you are a great person.
"Welcome to Walmart!" Walmart is a wonderful place to work because the greatest majority of people go into Walmart. Smile at people while you work at Walmart and give Walmart a good days work as if you are doing it for the Lord instead of Walmart. If you continue to do this, God will promote you and soon.
Your old friends don't hate you. They ignore you because you just said with every word that you typed - I am negative. I don't deserve friends or anything else. With that attitude, that is exactly what will come your way - nothing!
Start saying - "I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am a child of the Most High God and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Happy are those who know the Lord. Speak Scripture to yourself.
Let the Lord be the master ruling over you and not Satan. Evil games, videos, movies, words and sayings stay away from because these allow the devil to intervene in your life.
Guard your ears and eyes and keep them focused upon the Lord. Happy are those who trust in the Lord.
- Anonymous1 decade ago
To answer your question, I felt like this, but because of my age. I felt like worthless property at fifteen. The feeling never really went away, just got smaller as a gained more legal rights and felt more like a person.
What you need to do is, perhaps go to school. Can you still go? Apply to a community college, and go on anti-depressants. Try to socialize with people in the school. No offense, but your current position is obviously making you feel horrible. Even if you get a two year degree, it will make you feel better about yourself. If you haven't finished highschool, get a GED. And try a dating service, go out and meet some women from it.
- Anonymous1 decade ago
Your not alone buddy. I don't have any friends, Never had a girlfriend etc. I'm on the same boat as you. As far as you being over weight or whatever, i can help you with that. Email me and i will give you some info (I'm toned as a race horse lol) but anyway, Walmart is not the worst place ever........you should consider yourself lucky to have a job. Take care and remember to email me. I'll help you the best i can.
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- 1 decade ago
people are strange, aren't they? kids and children are better measuring sticks than adults sometimes because kids don't understand compare and contrast w/ people like adults do. we big people annalize everything, kids respond. a much simpler and honest approach. ever hear the expression, animals and children can sense evil ? it's true. adults are the ones who have to "rate" everything, kids don't. besides, what do you think of a person who's great wiht kids...i think they rank much higher as people. kids respond to people with a kind and gentle nature, my daugher is a great example to me.as far as the ladies, relax. women are seekers as are men. when it counts, women like the guys who have a natural soft side. the brash exterior is just the attractor. the definitly like the soft gooy center. job wise, it's just a job. more people do what they don't like for the sake of money than not. walmart sucks on many levels in my opinion, but it's a job. try working in a place where kids are, toys r' us perhaps.
- outtahere2dayLv 51 decade ago
Only you know how to get a lil happier.
You know already what you want to do, its just the doing.
You will have to reach out and speak out, as people go along with their own lives and troubles, and don't stop to see you.
You control you.
There are many resources for help, encouragement, friendship, interests, and this is just one of them.
You spilled your guts here.........so keep on.
You can make changes.
- TamarindLv 41 decade ago
You sound to me like you think life just HAPPENS to you. WRONG! You have to LIVE it. You have to take reponsibility for your own state. Face your problem and cure it.
It's your weight that's making you unhappy, isn't it? So why don't you do something about it instead of just whining. The food doesn't creep into your mouth when you're not looking - you put it in yourself. Stop being so self-indulgent and do something about it NOW, because it will get harder and harder year by year till they have to cart you about in a wheelbarrow.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life.
- 1 decade ago
Wow you sound depressed. As the other person said, try going to worship services (church, synagog, mosque, temple...whichever works for you). Try to get out more. Rely on the people close to you for help. Talk about what's bothering you. If you continue to feel that way, or if it gets worse, see a doctor. Good luck.
- devotiLv 43 years ago
no i dont..your misery is stressing you thats why you think of that way..it incredibly is going to bypass relies upon on the variety you reside your existence..dont stay on your misery via fact its no longer a stable reason to need your international blowing up
- 1 decade ago
Try going to church. It will open up a whole new world of people and activities for you. Go to a Bible teaching church, not an ancient out-dated hymn singing, boring church..... a modern on the move church. You'll love it! ... and they'll love you! God loves you, and you can't beat that!Source(s): Personal experience!