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I just got back from the USA after I found out my husband and I did not get along well, he was very abusive. My family did not want me to come back to my country to not be a burden to them. I came back anyway. AFter I came back I heard from someone I loved the most in my life but he never makes up his mind. I lost almost everything I had, but thank GOd I got my job back. No car, no family anymore because they don't forgive me for coming back and not succed in the USA. Boy, this is not my fault. My mother is sort of crazy, my brothers don't have their own families and don't talk to me...........the other guy I heard after 4 years has health issues, once he writes he is coming, the other he writes he is not coming or he is indecisive. I am not a child anymore I am 52 and my ex husband in the USA kept all my stuff there, including my car and never sold it to send my money back. Now it seems he is being more sensitive and decided to help me out a little bit. I did not kill myself because I have faith in the Lord but I hav nobody who talks to me except my friends in my job and very few friends but only one comes and calls me. The others only pray for me. I have no pension, no retirment, not allimony, no nothing............but I have myself and my dignity and also my faith. Believe me, if I could I would sleep till Christmas and New Year's is over. You have a husband, my dear, rejoice and try to see the good out of this. I am, why can't you? Good luck and God bless you and your husband.