What do you think?

I don't want to live anymore. I want to die. I don't have a gun.

I am 19. I started feeling suicidal at the age of 11. I grew up around a parent with bipolar, which has ran through my family for many years. My other parent was full of anger, and quite abusive. 8 years later, and I'm still battling suicidal thoughts and depression. After seeing numerous GP's, Psychologists, Psychiatrists, Cognitive Behavioural Therapists, Counsellors, and Mental Health Nurses - nothing has helped. I tried the standard anti depressants, a lot of them, they made me feel worse. I'm seeing a psychiatrist this week for another assessment, I just feel like I'm going round in circles. I have no friends, and hardly talk to my family. I have a partner who I love dearly, but he doesn't understand, which is fair enough. Life is meaningless. I hate being here, I always have. My life was a mistake, I constantly have mood swings, and all I ever truly think about is death. I need help, and I don't know what to do anymore. No one seems to care.

I have, for several days now, my sleep feels all out of whack. I go to bed earlier when I have a busier schedule, and when I don't, it's hard to get it back to what it was. I've felt my anxiety going up again. What helps?

I want to injure myself and go to hospital

i know its bad because it will hurt everyone, but i am so tired of feeling this way and i have tried to change things and get help i just don't want to go on

My grandfather is severely ill with cancer throughout his body. He refuses to eat and drink, has to have oxygen, and often uses the bathroom on himself. He tried to fight the in-home nurses and tried to attack his physical therapist the other day. He can hardly walk at times, and his memory isn t very good. My grandmother refuses to put him in a home (even though she isn t even married to him–and hasn t been for 3-4yrs). She s trying to get everyone to rush and take care him, including myself. I can t take care of him throughout the week because I m starting college in a few days and I play a sport. My father works 12hr shifts, my aunt and uncle work almost every day, and my stepmom refuses to take care of him for reasons I won t list (though they re valid). My grandmother opted to undertake 24hr care of him, but she s getting mad because she "never leaves the house." We re running out of options, and it s stressing me out to the point that I can t sleep.

Best answer: I think you just have to get in the moment. Do not reject mindfulness as being too touchy-feely. Always have a good book around, it could be the Bible, it could be Dostoyevsky, it could be Patton's biography. The point is, don't waste your mental energy on a self-defeating inner monologue.

Best answer: As you wish!!!
There is no wall and law to hesitate it between you guys.

And they threaten the people's fathers on their mothers behalf?

Best answer: they worry too much mind other people business too much

Not the TV for sure.