I'll just call him Dan, (even though that's not his name.)
I've known Dan for about 4 years now, and every time we meet it's like we have known each other our whole lives. I've recently just come out of a relationship because my boyfriend was being really cruel to me. He'd like to hit me, and shout at me; All because he had severe anger management issues. Dan offered me a lot of Support through it all, and Dan and my ex-boyfriend are really really close friends. (Not as close as me and Dan though). I've liked Dan on and off for about 3 years, and lately I've been thinking an awful lot about him.
In the past, I've had self harming issues, and psychiatric problems, and anger management, my psychiatrist helped me a lot through my problems and now I feel a much better person.
Things started going down hill when my ex-boyfriend started abusing me. I'd started self harming because I had an extremely low self esteem and felt lowly of myself. I didn't feel loved, I felt rejected from the world. I was anorexic for a while... But Dan was always there for me, which made me feel much better.
In november, it made me realise how much of a great guy Dan was, and I began to really fall for him. About two months ago, during a class... He turned to me and said this:
Dan : Liz, did you get my text?...
(I didn't get it because I lost my phone)
Me : No Dan, I didn't..
Dan : I just wanted to tell you something really badly.
Me : Tell me now, I won't judge you..
Dan : Okay, I think I'm gay.
I instantly felt crushed when he said that, that's three years of my life I'm never going to get back. I don't mind him being gay, because I'm bi-sexual and I understand what he's going through. I helped him throuugh his problems, when it came to a point where he started telling me that he really liked some guy...
I got really jelous.
Last week, I told him how I really felt. I told him how hurt I was, and how much I liked him..
He said :
Dan : "Awwwwww, Liz.. You're a great girl, and you're amazing.. I love you to pieces and I wouldn't want to do anything to hurt you. I would probably go out with you... but you're with someone and I'm gay.."
I'm not with that guy anymore. But he's still gay. Leaving me absolutely no chance whatsoever.
What can I do?
I'm meeting up with him tomorrow,
Can you please help me? :'/