someone i met recently questioned whether I have it, given my intelligence but lack of socialness and unable to see things from his perspective (I am quite intelligent, i got top a-level results in my county and study maths and physics at a top uni,)I've never been a very social person, I don't enjoy it and I think people find me socially awkward
I developed a nervous tic of neck in year 9. It occurs more on things like eye contact, paying over a counter, if im doing something and someone walks in the room and i see it from the corner of my eye, a loud noise, any sudden movements in the corner of my eye etc
, a shopping mall or shopping gallery that is very white, mainly white or silver colours, has always made me anxious-which is quite common in shopping galleries.
noises sometimes works me up alot, i recall my eyes watering, and i think cryingg without really being able to explain why, at uni when hall doors slammed because the sound went straight through me,my emotions seem quite high scaled- when im angry, anxious or down In a room i always feel like i need to sit in a corner were i can see everyone and everyone is in front of me.
on paper i look good for jobs and get alot of interviews but i've failed a probation period, and tend to be bad at interviews
i always pre-plan my coffee or food orders and make sure i have the right change ready- but this could be due to the tic
i dont use gestures when i talk and ive often been told i have a monotone voice,