I will list all the things why I want him to go away from me.
-when we were kids and my mom used to make us shower together. i hated it because he's 6 years older than me. so he was through puberty and he used to look down at me and it was disturbing
-he showed me one time a sawed off shotgun in his trunk, and it just frightened me
-i was a kid riding in his car one time, and he followed a handicap man and then used a bat to destroy his bycycle
-when i was alone in my room, he would put his naked butt through the door and make girl sounds at me
-if i would stand up to him by saying he needs to get away from me, he would start screaming loudly at me and then get in my face and tell me to hit him and he would slap his jaw for me to hit him
It's strange. He's never actually hurt me physically, but I feel as if he is somehow try to sabotage my psychology.
I need serious opinions about this. If you want to be rude, please do not comment at all.
I seriously want to just never have to see him again. I'm 27 and live with my grandmother. He comes over here to wash his clothes, and every time I see him I will go into my room and shut the door to hide. I feel he is a psychotic person who preys on me, and nobody like my mother or grandmother is wiling to help.
Some people told me, I have to beat him up. However, I cannot bring myself to that kind of life. I just want it to disappear.