To anyone telling me to move on, I know. I am. It's horrible, but I'm just curious.
Me and my long-distance ex of 6 months broke up in January after too many fights and me stupidly calling/facetiming far less than I originally did.
Things in the relationship weren't all bad. We were very compatible, we loved each other's company, she even used to say we were soulmates.
We're meeting up for a vacation in a month and I really want her back. We talk regularly (she's just send me a link to an instagram post as I'm typing lol), we flirt, she's even said "I miss you" and how she thinks things will get romantic on this vacation.
But after she mentioned wanting to travel with me, even if we aren't together. I had to let her know that, I'm okay being just "friends" leading up to this trip but if there's not going to be reconciliation then I'm gone from her life. (I kinda want to travel with her, things are amazing when we're together, but I need more time to get over her).
She seemed kind of confused but said she understood, and loved the fact that I want this trip to put a smile on her face and be kind of a farewell. (don't bother telling me to cancel this trip, I genuinely want to go).
Now I'm sad because she seems very content with me being absent from her life in 5 weeks time, and if you reverse the roles, I'm not.