Please read :(
My dad passed away recently and i feel so guilty for not have been able to say goodbye. It was so sudden. I use to be that stubborn child and even though we always played outside together when i was younger, i feel like i never showed him how much he really meant to me.
I keep thinking that I'll never ever be able to see him again and were selling his home soon too and thats killing me inside out.
I can't sleep and i keep trying so I'm so drained from all this
i feel guilty for smiling during the day because i don't want him to think I've forgotten about him
theres so much left unsaid that i can't move on, and even talking to him now i know won't do anything because ill never be 100% sure that he's heard me.
Ive never lost someone so close to me that i don't know how to act, i don't think properly and i just want to see him again.
Someone please help me a little if you can. I would really appreciate it