Totally know how you feel. My dad committed suicide in 1978 when I was only 16 years old. I have 2 older brothers and a younger sister, and my mom, who just died yesterday. I think she took her own life too, took an overdose of her blood pressure meds! I may be wrong on that. The last time I saw my dad was when I got home from a date and kissed my...
Totally know how you feel. My dad committed suicide in 1978 when I was only 16 years old. I have 2 older brothers and a younger sister, and my mom, who just died yesterday. I think she took her own life too, took an overdose of her blood pressure meds! I may be wrong on that. The last time I saw my dad was when I got home from a date and kissed my dad goodnight and went to bed, then the next day he sent us all out on some stupid picnic and move thing with my mom and then proceeded to kill himself, which he did do. By the time we got back he was dead on his bed in a tuxedo with notes saying goodbye and why he did this. "...no circus, no trauma, no tears," read the note! "...I am at peace with myself, no fear, we've done it all!" He was only 50. He left us behind, on purpose! How sad that you lost your dad. The pain never goes away, and as you age, you ask yourself, HOW? or WHY? or "Could I have helped keep him alive?" But to remember have photos of him as a kid, and teenager around your room, as I have in my living room. Also, talk to him out loud, but make sure no one is around. And if you get caught talking to him, pretend you are singing! I talk to my father, God, and soon my mother when I get over the weirdness of her passing. She passed last night! How strange how my mom died, and so did you dad! Maybe they will meet in heaven, if your dad was a good boy. But remember all the good, the bad and the ugly times with your father. Write down how you feel. Start a journal called "DAD" and start to write to him. Believe me, in a few weeks he will see what you wrote, and take hear in this, the soul does go somewhere: THE SOUL IS LOCATED IN THE RIGHT SIDE OF OUR BRAINS! We have been taught that the soul or spirit is located in our solar plexus, at least that is the majority rule in that subject. Until now. I believe, from studying and learning more about the brain, that our soul or spirit resides on the creative right side of the brain not the Solar Plexus. That's what makes us tick, the soul of anything we do comes from that side of the brain.
We know that there are two sides to most everyone's brains. One is the logical (left) side and the other is the (Right) creative side. I'm not counting frontal lobes or intricate nerves and cells of the brain, just the simple theory of Right Side/Left Side of brain and where I believe the spiritual soul resides.
When we sit quietly and think to ourselves, our thoughts are sensed at the top of our heads, or in our minds, which most things are located in our heads, that encases our brains. When we think or talk, we do not see or speak through our chests or above the Solar Plexus. So it is only natural to think that the soul resides in the right side of the brain, the creative side of the brain. The logical side (the left) just hides the facts from us until the very last second before we can either get revived and brought back to light from drowning or a fire, or possibly a gun shot wound, or even a stroke or tumble in the street.
The logical side of the brain will retain the memory of the episode, unless we end up on the light or dark side of God. I, myself, plan to end up dwelling in the light side of God, where I will feel a slight floating sensation. I will not have the same mind power because the logical side is destroy when the body dies and our soul is given extra time to have God's hand practically pull it over the brain and into his energy, where itl becomes fluffy energy.
6 years ago