I've been with my boyfriend for a couple of months. We hadn't had sex yet because I wasn't ready. I'd only had sex once before, at a party in high school, and the guy dumped me the next day. So the next time I wanted to wait until I was in love.
Then I started dating this guy, and I wouldn't...
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I've been with my boyfriend for a couple of months. We hadn't had sex yet because I wasn't ready. I'd only had sex once before, at a party in high school, and the guy dumped me the next day. So the next time I wanted to wait until I was in love.
Then I started dating this guy, and I wouldn't have sex right away so he asked if I was a virgin. I told him no and told him about the one time I'd had sex in high school and that I wanted to be in love for the next time. He said he would wait, but he's been getting impatient.
A couple of nights ago, we were just kissing, and he started sliding his hand under my bra and running his hand over my bare breasts. I told him to stop, and he got annoyed and said I obviously don't like him and maybe he should find someone else. Then I got scared. He then asked if I would have sex with him just once, just give it a chance. He said "it's not like you're a virgin anyway." So I agreed because I didn't want him to leave. He immediately started ripping my clothes off and putting his hands and mouth all over my body.
He went down on me for a while, which was weird and not pleasurable, as all he did was stick his tongue inside me and thrash it around randomly. Then, he asked if I was ready and he got on top and we had sex.
After he was done, he fell asleep, and I got my clothes and just left. I went to my room and just cried. I felt so dirty and used. He's been calling, but I don't want to talk to him.
What should I do?